I know many of you will be shocked by this as I have previously been very open and even arrogant about my atheism. You will also probably know that I used to be a born-again Christian.
Well, something very weird happened to me just now. At just after midnight today, I got an email from the minister of my old church, Dan.
I was working late (as usual) and checked my emails as I tend to do, so it wasn't luck or anything that I happened to see it when I did. However, the timing was quite good as I have had a weird couple of days and haven't been looking forward to April as it's a really busy month.
I've also been losing my atheist convictions a bit lately. What I mean by that is, I've been asking myself "was I happier when I believed in a higher power?"
So, I got an email from Dan Yarnell who, it turns out, had found me by accident when looking for a marketing company for his ministry. He had known me well as a child, and although I don't want to go into too much detail about what he said, suffice to say he made me realise that I've been fooling myself for a very long time now. I was much happier when I was a Christian, and that is simply because God is the Truth.
I know there are theist skeptics, and I previously had no understanding of their position, but a sneaking sympathy for it. Since reading the email, I have realised that Christianity is not a complete fabrication as I had come to believe, but a philosophy based on the word of God.
Lots of people ask "where do atheists get their morals from?" and I usually reply "we don't need them, we have empathy". But this simply isn't true for me. I have very few morals. For example, I am quite happy to lie without giving it a second thought.
I want you all to think about what I'm saying here. If someone like me, a die-hard atheist, can realise that the Word of God is in all of us, then you can as well. Something was missing in my life before and I have tried to fill that void with all sorts of things. I think skepticism might even be one of them, although I would like to continue to battle against the supernatural and paranormal as they are forces for Evil as taught in the Bible.
I will post more on this after today but for now I want you all to think about what has happened to me and ask yourself some deep questions, and consider if you are being completely honest with yourselves: Proverbs 12:19, "The lip of truth shall be established for ever: but a lying tongue is but for a moment."
Amen, sister!
John 11:35, I say. The craic is fecking mighty. :)
Lo! Anyone needeth an holy calendar?
Thank goodness for that :DOriginally Posted by asthmatic camel
I wish you'd posted this yesterday.
My life too has had a void in it for a while now and I've known that 'something' was needed to fill it.
Yesterday, I addressed that problem - and bought myself a hippopotamus.
I never thought of the God thing.
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John, it may well be a divine hippopotamus. God works in a mysterious way, his wonders to perform.
Did I put too many hints in? :D
Well, even though you have said in the past that you are Jewish - accepting responsibility for the moon landing hoax, 911, and all that () I still had a sinking feeling reading this.
Well done!
Good one, Teek!
You had me worried about you for a minute until:
which is straight out of the same stable as the old canard "This statement is false". Then I realised what date you were writing on ...I am quite happy to lie without giving it a second thought.
Yay! I'm glad fooled someone, even for a moment :D
It actually has a basis in truth - I did used to be a Christian and my minister was indeed called Dan Yarnell. I used his real name in case anyone Googled for him, the search would have added a strand of truth to my tale. I totally overcooked the clues but it was funny to write. Here they are:
:DI know many of you will be shocked by this as I have previously been very open and even arrogant about my atheism. You will also probably know that I used to be a born-again Christian.
Well, something very weird happened to me just now. At just after midnight today, I got an email from the minister of my old church, Dan.
I was working late (as usual) and checked my emails as I tend to do, so it wasn't luck or anything that I happened to see it when I did. However, the timing was quite good as I have had a weird couple of days and haven't been looking forward to April as it's a really busy month.
I've also been losing my atheist convictions a bit lately. What I mean by that is, I've been asking myself "was I happier when I believed in a higher power?"
So, I got an email from Dan Yarnell who, it turns out, had found me by accident when looking for a marketing company for his ministry. He had known me well as a child, and although I don't want to go into too much detail about what he said, suffice to say he made me realise that I've been fooling myself for a very long time now. I was much happier when I was a Christian, and that is simply because God is the Truth.
I know there are theist skeptics, and I previously had no understanding of their position, but a sneaking sympathy for it. Since reading the email, I have realised that Christianity is not a complete fabrication as I had come to believe, but a philosophy based on the word of God.
Lots of people ask "where do atheists get their morals from?" and I usually reply "we don't need them, we have empathy". But this simply isn't true for me. I have very few morals. For example, I am quite happy to lie without giving it a second thought.
I want you all to think about what I'm saying here. If someone like me, a die-hard atheist, can realise that the Word of God is in all of us, then you can as well. Something was missing in my life before and I have tried to fill that void with all sorts of things. I think skepticism might even be one of them, although I would like to continue to battle against the supernatural and paranormal as they are forces for Evil as taught in the Bible.
I will post more on this after today but for now I want you all to think about what has happened to me and ask yourself some deep questions, and consider if you are being completely honest with yourselves: Proverbs 12:19, "The lip of truth shall be established for ever: but a lying tongue is but for a moment."
Yeah, I knew that - which is why I got worried for a second. Religion's a bit like smoking you know, you never quite get it out of your systemIt actually has a basis in truth - I did used to be a Christian
I should also clarify that I do have morals :D
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