Floppit
18th December 2009, 12:50 PM
I've no clue which bit this should go in so I'll start here and if it needs moving I'm all good with that (long as it isn't junk! :undecided:).
Years ago I had a migraine - the only one I've ever had in my life. I was swimming when it started and thought my costume was coming off but it wasn't, parts of my body were going numb, I only had a mild headache at the time. I drove home worried and with pins and needles plus numb bits. About an hour later I was struggling to speak, I can't remember if I could 'think' whole sentences or just a sense of the meaning, what I wanted to say. Hubby was working away and I phoned my best friend who's a nurse. Fast forward a few hours and I was in hospital with a suspected stroke. Over those hours I experienced not being able to get words out but at the time was too worried it was serious to play with it and I utterly regret that. I wish I'd tried to read, write, label, my comprehension was perfect but my speech was all over the place. All the symptoms wore off over the night and scans in the morning led to the conclusion that it had been a migraine, phew! I have told just about every person who knows me that if it EVER happened again or even if I had something worse to remind me to have a play, I've even said some basic things I'd want to try or anything their imagination conjures up.
It's too interesting to be on the inside of something read about, not for generalisation to whole populations, for me not even for empathy although I'm sure that would be a side effect - there's just something about it, if I could induce the same state safely I would, just to know what I was thinking, how I was thinking, to record an individual visit from the interior! I get totally why through history people have at times experimented on themselves and I doubt it has always been for lack of a willing (or unwilling) victim.
Has anyone else ever experienced anything like this, or felt oddly lucky to experience something unusual even if unpleasant just because there's a curiosity about it?
Years ago I had a migraine - the only one I've ever had in my life. I was swimming when it started and thought my costume was coming off but it wasn't, parts of my body were going numb, I only had a mild headache at the time. I drove home worried and with pins and needles plus numb bits. About an hour later I was struggling to speak, I can't remember if I could 'think' whole sentences or just a sense of the meaning, what I wanted to say. Hubby was working away and I phoned my best friend who's a nurse. Fast forward a few hours and I was in hospital with a suspected stroke. Over those hours I experienced not being able to get words out but at the time was too worried it was serious to play with it and I utterly regret that. I wish I'd tried to read, write, label, my comprehension was perfect but my speech was all over the place. All the symptoms wore off over the night and scans in the morning led to the conclusion that it had been a migraine, phew! I have told just about every person who knows me that if it EVER happened again or even if I had something worse to remind me to have a play, I've even said some basic things I'd want to try or anything their imagination conjures up.
It's too interesting to be on the inside of something read about, not for generalisation to whole populations, for me not even for empathy although I'm sure that would be a side effect - there's just something about it, if I could induce the same state safely I would, just to know what I was thinking, how I was thinking, to record an individual visit from the interior! I get totally why through history people have at times experimented on themselves and I doubt it has always been for lack of a willing (or unwilling) victim.
Has anyone else ever experienced anything like this, or felt oddly lucky to experience something unusual even if unpleasant just because there's a curiosity about it?